end of semester 7!(yeeha walaweyh)

YEEEHAAA WALAWEYH!!!

trademark 2nd final semester.ahahhaha,,,lama da x update blog kan,,byk bnda nak citer time bukan kt depan lappy.bila depan lappy da xigt pebenda nak citer. ok lah kita wat conclusion sem7.aku da nak grad sem depan!!!!

yay!

spnjang sem ni,,aku jmpa xramai org sgt.tp BANYAKKKKK karenah nyer.

1. noor Fad***ah bt ape ntoh.

tahniah kpd beliau kerana berjaya merangkul tempat pertama.orangnyer manis,,taik lalat atas idung.beliau ajar aku hubungan etnik.(2 kredit hour je pon)tp kerja kursus nye macam haremm.bukan banyak,,ade 1 jer,,tapi kena antar berkali2.mula2 nak amek tajuk,,da problem,,tajuk yang dia suggest da abes,,aku suggest sndiri.

"eh mana boleh da ade org amek"
"eh mane boleh saya nak berkaitan bhs melayu jer"
"eh sume yang awak cadang da ade org buat"
puan bagi sy list tajuk2 org laen,,sy nak ejas tajuk sy smpai boleh.
"eh mane boleh sy xtulis pon ape tajuk yang grup laen dah buat"
lorrrhhh.
at last(lagi seminggu due date):
"awak buat jerla pape tajuk pon,,,sal ptptn pon bleh"
lam ati berbicara:
"eh perempuan"

esoknya lepas dapat tajuk kitorg terus siap buat questionaire.pantas kan.da expert da wat keje last minit.nak kena jumpa dia nih,,approve questionaire.sorg ahli grup g lar jumpa.tunggu tau bape lama?seminit?30minit?bukann.2jam!.hoh.kalu aku laa yang tunggu tempoh hari,,aku da bertukar jadi makhluk hijau.sedut mata beliau.masuk jumpa nyer xsmpai 5 minit.

"sy nak awak taip,,pastu send kat emel sy k"

dgn pantas aku antar emel kat dia..tut tut tut masuk kelas:

"sesape yg x approve lg questionaire dtg jmp sy hari ni ngan esok,,4-6pm"
"jgn nak ngade2 antar kat emel,,sy xde mase nak bukak emel"
lorhhhhhhhhhh.
eh perempuan.

so aku sbg student da penat2 balik kelas gi kt blik dia,,tgk2 da penuh org tggu.xpe,,aku balik umah solat dlu la,,4.45pm aku dtg balik.demi kerja kursus tu,aku g smula fakulti (15min dr umah sewa=rm2.50ron95).smpai fakulti kul 5lebeh2.tok tok tok.senyap.tok tok tok.sepi.gang gang gang.debush!pintu kamarnye ku tendang.masih tiada jawapan.kuintai lampu sudah padam.dalam hati aku berbicara,,"xpelah dia lecturer,,aku yang patot tunggu dia".tunggu kejap lamm 540pm aku pon blah.minggu seterusnya aku malas nak masuk kelas beliau dah,,muka manis pon da jadi muka masam.balik kelas kwn citer dia ckp:

"kita kenala ade pakej yg baik,,ini tak,,dah la hodoh,,bodoh,,malas"

mungkin dia xtujukan buat kami.tp.........................dan ade bebrappa dialog yg masih segar diingatan contohnye:

"eh kalau sy rm500 tu 2 hari jer abis call kawan sy kat canada"
"eh budak2 skang ni boros kan,,kalau sy dlu ckup je ptptn tu,,kalu mcm tu sy nak sorg anak je la"
bipolar.
"alah hantaran kwn sy tu baru bape bulan gaji sy,,nasib bek la sy belajar tinggi"
"sy student terbaik UM"
"sy dlu masa umur2 awk ni dah conquer UM tau"

hurmm,,dan di akhir kesabaran aku,,sebab dah 3x antar 'draft' masih dirijek,,aku pon mmeluahkan la perasaan.aku ckp puan bagi jerla ape yang kami layak dapat,,kami pon ade byk lagi keje laen nak buat,,dah bape malam xtido buat benda ni.dan beberapa ceramah yg mungkin menyakitkan ati beliau.

"eh mane boleh nak pasrah cmtu"
"eh awak ni berlagak betol"
"sy xpenah jumpa student kurang ajar cam awak"
"sy xkan doakan yg terbaek utk awak"
"sy arap sy xde keturunan cam awak"

sbgai student aku sedar aku xpatut buat mcm tu.lawan lecturer.lawan org tua.tp kalu bukan kita yg jd cermin diorg,,sape lagi.dunia dah berubah.xsemestinya yang muda itu kurang ilmunya dr semua aspek.kdg2 ade yang muda tahu,,tp yg tua xpernah tahu.dan sebaliknya.cuma yang tua akan LEBIH tahu.bukan tahu SEMUAnya.kerana mereka lebih maka kita kena hormat.kerana mereka lebih tahu maka mereka juga akan tahu menghormati org yg lebih muda juga.dan bukannya

"oh sy student terbaik dlu,,sy dah grad jadi lecturer maka sy tak perlu lagi jadi manusia!"

selagi anda manusia anda patut tahu apa yg menyakitkan manusia laen..apa yg mungkin membuat anda dibenci org laen.benar anda berpengetahuan dan berpengalaman.anda byk asam garam dlm kehidupan sebelum kami.mungkin kami xde pengalaman sehebat anda,tapi kami mungkin mampu melihat dgn jelas dan lebih baik apa yang didepan.

:.kerosakan setahun lalu.:

dah setahun.
aku tinggalkan sesuatu yang bukan aku.
dah setahun.
aku akibatkan kerosakan teruk terhadap diri sendiri.
setahun lalu.
aku jauh lebih baik.
ape yang ade dalam masa setahun ni.
hanya kerosakan.
tapi kenapa dulu dalam kebaikan tu
hati tak penah tenang.
jiwa meronta2
hidup tak segembira waktu2 sekarang.
walau kadang sakit.
tapi masih banyak waktu gembira.
setahun lalu.
kosong setiap kali mata terbuka.
kosong juga saat mata pejam.
hari ini.
hati gembira.hati terluka.
tapi x kosong.
cuma rasa bersalah atas kerosakan setahun lalu.
hidup tak pernah seindah dulu.
tapi hidup xkan lebih bermakna dari sekarang.
maafkan aku.
sememangnya aku telah melepaskan syurga yang dia cuba bawa aku utk bersama
aku harap masih ada cinta lain yang akan membawa aku kesana.
maafkan aku Tuhan.
maafkan aku teman.
aku gembira dalam kerosakan setahun lalu.

life is so hectic!

i go to sleep at 5am,,(mostly)

i wake up at 2pm,,
i eat my breakfast=lunch at 3pm,,
i do my homework at 4pm,,
at 6pm i go to bath,,put on some make up,,
bun my hair,,
at 6.40pm i should be in my beloved hero,,WNE.
driving all the way to Jaya Jusco,,
smiling to the customer who is always right,,
doing counts for the day,,
stop by a burger stall,,
have my dinner in the car,,at 12pm.
i go home then,,cleaning.
by 1am i do some revision,,
but usually my bones cracking,,
legs very near to cramp,,
so no study.
yes to bed.but i can't sleep since the exam is just around the corner.
i wake up at 3am,,study again(fb,,blogging,,only the POWER)
then it's a complete cycle.
i don't know where my money had gone.
if i don't work part time.
i'll be surely die from starving.
sometimes it's hard to have nobody to cling on.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY LOVE,,
SORRY FOR NOT PREPARING ANYTHING,,
AND NOT EVEN GOING ANYWHERE,,
AND DO NOTHING ON OUR SPECIAL DAY.
my life is just so.....killing me!

cook n food::tapai pulut

skang ni ngah bizi update mak sy pnya buku resipi,,memandangkan buku resepi beliau yg sudah lusuh maka sy mengambil inisiatif utk taip balik buku beliau,,smbil menaip sy terfikir,,mengapa tidak sy blog kan aje??leh la sume org bace kan,,so dis is the very 1st post of my cooking passion::THE TAPAI PULUT,,yay!!(sbb arini pg2 buta agy dah kena kejut utk bgkus tapai)

ingredients:
1. 1kg beras pulut
2. sebijik ragi
3. beberapa helai daun getah,,jambu laut,,atau malinjau,,(nak bungkus tapai ni)

cara2nya:
tanak pulut,,tanak keras2 sket.maknanya kurangkan air la tu.jgn wt cm pulut bese yg nak makan terus.bila dah masak,,biarkan sejuk.pastu,,hancurkan ragi,,tabur kat atas pulut yg dah sejuk td tu,,gaul sebati,,
dah siap?jum bungkus plak,,,


dah siap,,yay!!ni la dia makanan tradisional masy pantai timur,,rase dia manis(kalau menjadi),,result dia berbeza setiap individu,,bergantung kepada kebolehan msg2,,uniknya,,mase nak buat ni ade pntang larang,,tgn xleh kotor,,xleh terkejut sepnjang handle tapai ni,,xleh kalu xmandi b4 buat ni,,nnti tapai xjadi,,
selamat mencuba!

Power System Analysis

"cronologi marking test1 n asgnment 4BEKP:
case1: marking test.jwpan xbest.Q senang jek.=linear marking
case2: marking assignment yg telah d wat blk selepas quiz jwp xbrape nk best
pergh!! sgt menyirap jwp xbest lagik "hello i give u a wk ok."
case3: paling menyirap ade yg "LIQUID" quiz then anto as assgmnt
Thus sgt SkT atie+rs mau Mkn bdk+haNcuR smPai LumAt!!
End Case:ReMarK Test n kali nie sGt iKuT skEma!! :p"

selamat malam dan selamat berbuka.sy tahu di 10 malam terakhir kita perlu memperbanyakkan ibadah.tp bila bukak2 facebook jer,,ternampak post ni.sy la student 4bekp tu.(bachelor of electrical engineering,industrial power).among all those cases she mentioned above,,do you ever wonder why should those happen?

if yes:then keep on reading.
if no:stay though.u shud noe.

first of all,,jum sesame igt ape kita dah buat spnjang sem ni,,sy mempunyai daya ingatan yg sgt lemah,,jadi pape yg tertinggal tlg jgn marah k.sem mula 7 july.plg hodoh secara rasmi klas akan start a week after dat.klas analysis 2 times a week.kat kelas kami dibacakan slide.dan diberikan plg byk 1 latihan setiap klas.latihan yg ade kat dlm buku hadi saadat yang kami tau baca sendiri.slide pon kami tau bace gak.after 2 hours of class,,class dismissed with nothing captured by my super duper slow impulse.plg segar pon ade laa beberapa patah perkataan yg i was capable to recall.
power system analysis contains=summarizes all syllabus that we hv learn in past 6 semesters.yes,,so far we hv learn almost everything in power sys analysis.but why we were so dumb dat we hurt our beloved lecturer so much?benda tu sume kan dah blaja,,,nape bengap sgt ni smpai xleh jawap test 1??
berbalik ke topik asal,,dlm minggu ke dua belajar,,ade kuiz.sal per unit eh?ntah,,lupa.the very next week,,ade quiz agy.balanced fault.i answer more then my fren (of coz we dont hv enough time to get to final answer) and she marked it rite,,but i got 3 marks less than my fren.i dont gv a damn bout my marks.i'm not so into study in this few months.so let it be.pastu ade lect bg esaimen psl gauss seidel n newton raphson.anta ngan jayanye,,xtido malam wat bnda yg xmasuk akal tu.the very next week,,there's a quiz again.honestly speaking,,i play truant.ahahah.miss the class bcoz few hours b4 class i took 10ml of liquid that may cause drowsiness.(plz don't drive or handlle machineries if u r taking this).rumet dah kejut bape kali tp sy tersengih je kt atas katil tnpa menyedari hal itu.bila rumet balik,,dia ckp ade kuiz,,tp sume org xleh jawap.kali ni pasal nodal,,mesh,,matrix 4x4,,thevenin.lam kepala ah sudah!sy miss kuiz!bt again that was just for one sec.selang beberapa hari keluar pengumuman kt fb,,

" saya ade kc ur quiz td tue pada fadil...pesan kat all ur frds(all classmate)..buat semula QuiZ td itu n Antar pada saya time Ur TeSt 1 (Khamis 26/8/2010)...make it As AssIgNmEnT..yg xde anto QuIZ xbername tue nnt jumpe saya n bawa bersame2 kertas QuiZ...n Kc NaMe n Marks for ReCorD...Tq"

minggu tu mmg minggu penuh test.power protection.power analysis.project mgmnt.kami yg dh 4tahun blaja kat situ,,dah agak dah,,ni cm masuk test 1 je,,kami pon pulun setadi bnda tu.lgpon da xde bnda nak stadi kan sal power analysis.kami blaja tu je kot,,p.u(perut unta),,iteration,,bus voltage,,balanced fault.berbekalkan beberapa example kwn2 sy stat wt revision.sy demam so sy tido,,xlarat sgt nak stadi.bgn tido kwn2 ramai yg mesej xleh nak stadi,,xttau pape,,xde example,,esaimen xleh wat,,smpai nangis2 pn ade.sy cm giv up je tgk diorg.sy pn smbg tido.pas sahur br sy setadi n wt esaimen.kul 2 ade test ni,,hint yg kami ade cume test tu ade 2 soalan,,1 soalan 55marks and another 1 is 5marks.(?_?)hoh??mungkinkah last esaimen mtrix 4x4??sbb jln kerja bnda tu sgt pnjg,,konfem dh ni..sy xstadi bnda laen dh..lgpon nak stadi mnde,,tutor ade 3 soalan(xlengkap),,example 2 soalan,,lebeh kurang.esaimen newton raphson yg anta mase 2nd week xdpt2 balik.kalu stadi bnda yg kita dh wat cepat la sket igt balik kan.tp kertas tu xdpt2 balik plak,,mungkin menjadi wallpaper di kamar beliau.jam 2.30ptg kami bergerak ke medan perang,,tottttt,,soalan newton raphson yg jalan kerja nya mencarut2 itu!yess,,nampak dah masa depan.esaimen xdapat balik utk revision,,semalam wt esaimen mtrix 4x4,,dewan besar guna lampu dim,,ekon xde,,perut kembung,,otak xberada di bwh kawalan,,jiwa dah di kg halaman.dgn berbekalkan daya ingatan yg sgt lemah ni,,i try very hard to revise ape yg dah sy wt mase esaimen first dlu,,hampir sebulan yg lalu kot.jwp la ape yg mampu,,the rest jst leave it to Allah.

toootttttttt,,kuar statement kat atas tu.ape yg kami rase?kalaulah kami ni bodoh,,xtau berdikari,,xtau cr rujukan sendiri,,knpa kami masih disini utk final year?bukan 3 org yg xleh jawap,,hampir semua!ade la top scorer yg leh past with flying colours,,bt wht bout us yg slow ni?

maaf jika ade khilaf.no offence.

love::hurt and pain

as he walks,,i shouldn't have stay.waiting when he forgot to ask for my hand to walk together.i shouldn't have wait.for him to look back.i should just catch up.or just move forward just like he did.ignoring me.i should just walk.i don't have to wait until he's too far away.he's running now.and i get left so far behind.sad but true,,i had just awake.will i be there where he's standing now?no,,should i even be there?

sometimes it's a bliss to be in love.but most of the time.it really hurts.

toner,,

seperti mana sume org tau,,toner ni agak penting la dlm penjagaan wajah.bagi sy la,,ia sgt lah penting,,same penting nyer dgn pencuci muka,,lebih penting dr moisturizer.pas kita cuci muka,,pori2 kulit ni akan terbuka dgn lebarnye sebab foam yg kita guna tu nak kutip minyak2 debu2 kat dlm pori tu..jadi,,nak tutup balik pori2 tu kena la guna toner ni,,dan secara teorinya air sejuk bleh membantu menutup pori2 dgn cepat.slame ni sy tercari2 toner yg leh kecilkan sy nye pori2 ni,,sbb ianya terlalu significant.kalu amek gambar pakai camera 2mp pon leh nampak lagi.dah dekat sama besar ngan lubang idung dah.tp pncarian tu cm x berpenghujung je.hampir giv up pakai toner.tapi semalam sy round satu jusco yg besar lebar dan panjang itu,,cr toner baru.at last masuk ETUDE HOUSE.anneyong seyo!sy pon pick this up:




i always expect if i keep on looking i'll find something super like this!
it's super icy sensation chills me out,,,i really like this,,huhuh,,,the first time i put it on my face i feel like crying..it feels so good that i can't wait to wash my face again.
and the price is rm46 but last night etude house got 50% discount for this so i pay only rm22.90!
and it's really worth it.try!

penyental daki tegar,,

i used this body scrub since 3 years ago,,until now,,sy sgt sukakan lulur badan ni,,becoz butiran scrub dia agak kasar,,tapi tak memedihkan.sy gak bese guna putri binari nyer,,tapi harga dia agak mahal,,dan agak halus so daki2 tegar cam malas sket nak kuar la,,yang ni name dia sumber ayu,,ngan ekstrak susu,,suke bau dia,,wangi sgt,,xmandi satu hari pastu pon leh tahan lagi,,and guess the price??rm4.90!!!!!!yay!scrub kat spa=rm30++,,skali harung.minggu depan berdaki lagi.kalu beli ni,,wat sendiri,,leh tahan 10x pakai,,kan senang,,
care nak guna dgn efisien,,sapu scrub kat sluruh badan,,biar kering jap,,gosok la dgn gaya bebas,,pastu sapu bahan yg kuar tu ngan span basah.done.

for you,,,

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

Give my all for your love
Tonight

neutron star collision (OST Eclipse)

I was searching
You were on a mission
Then our hearts combined like
A neutron star collision
I have nothing left to lose
You took your time to choose
Then we told each other
With no trace of fear that...
Our love would be forever
And if we die
We die together
And lie, I said never
'Cause our love would be forever
The world is broken
Halos fail to glisten
You try to make a difference
But no one wants to listen
Hail, The preachers, fake and proud
Their doctrines will be cloud
Then they'll dissipate
Like snowflakes in an ocean
Love is forever
And we'll die, we'll die together
And lie, I say never
'Cause our love could be forever
Now I've got nothing left to lose
You take your time to choose
I can tell you now without a trace of fear
That my love will be forever
And we'll die we'll die together
Lie, I will never
'Cause our love will be forever

can't wait for the movie!!

,,,when in surabaya,,,

saya baru jer balik dari surabaya,indonesia,,beberapa hari yang lalu,,penat2,,lenguh2 sume belum ilang sepenuhnyer lagi,,xkesahla kan,,janji dapat jalan..dapat penat dan lenguh xpe la lg,,adat travelling,,tp sy sgt jarang balik dr travel dan mendapt penyakit hati.sepanjang idup,,sy da pergi ke bnyk tmpat,,tp trip kali ni sgt bnyk mengajar saya tntang hidup.walaupun trip kali ni adlh yg paling tak best skali.nak tau nape tak,,huhu..saya ceritakan itinerary sy spnjg 6hari sy berada disana.
the very first day-sy sampai kat bendara juanda jam 11mlm wktu indonesia.keluarga kat sana dah tgu dr jam 8mlm lg,,sumenye baek,,alhamdulillah.disambut peluk cium,,dan senyuman x putus2.dgn menaiki mobil dan dipandu wak supir,kami dibawa pulang ke probolinggo.sampai umah jam 3pg kot.penat nak mampus.tp rumahnyer,,mmg mewah.xsempat nak explore,terus tido.
on 2nd day-wake up at 10.breakfast on table(in bedroom),,ala yang macam lam sinetron tu la,,terkejut gaban ngan layanan itu.tp xtrus makan.explore umah dulu.tgkat atas umah tu mmg khas utk bilik sy je,,syok betul.bukak pintu,,leh kuar ke bumbung.waah!!lagi syok.mandi.jalan2.balik.tido.spend only Rp200.000.

3rd day-jumpa sekalian saudara,,ramai yg dtg melawat.nak tgk rupa org malaysia.hepi la jugak kan.malam diorg bawak sy kuar jalan2.tgk bandar,,shopping.bes jugak.balik umah,,borak2,,sembang2,,meriah betol.
4th day-pagi travel ngan motor,,ke kabupaten lumajang.syok gak riding motorcycle(sepeda in javanese)kat indonesia.sgt mencabar.dan sy kategorikan jalanraya di indonesia adlh jalanraya plg bising antara negara yg pernah sy lawati.nk memotong,hon.flash.walaupun ade kenderaan kt depan,,silakan memotong.pandai2lah elak.huhu.but the view is....breathtaking!tp sygnyer xleh snap gambar,,sebab bwk motor kan.

sambung esok je la,,ade keje.babai!hehe.

,,,saying i love you,,,

to say i love you,,is never a complicated thing for a love couple,as it has become a routine,,but to be responsible to bear the meaning of those words,,only few realize and knows well how to deal with this.
as for me,,it is a hard thing to say those word,,even when im in love.it may takes me 2 months to get me ready to say it.because,,i really really want to mean it,,and i want my partner to know that i'm ready to face anything,,as long as he is with me.i want him to know,,that everything i do,,anywhere i go,,whatever i am,,he is always my priority.once i say those words,,i'll never stop saying it.and i wont change the meaning.
i wont go for an empty I LOVE YOU.

construction in progress

my latest blog,,developed for business propose(maybe),,but havent decide yet the real propose of this blog,,somehow if you want to access to my activities in my daily life,,seeing my perspective on several current issue,,then this iss the place you can attend,,instead of bloodyblanket.blogspot.com.
thank you,,